at home finally! :) and what's more,after 8.5 months!
whatever& however i write, already know no word will be able to explain what i feel! so let it slide! but,there is no place in the space like your home, there is no big hug like given by mother& father!
when i came to Turkey,Istanbul; realized the missing thing wasnt Turkey or Istanbul in total..it was to "own something"..it was to say :its my own country, my own city, my own money! and so forth:)
Istanbul continued to tell its story to me, made me drunk with its magic as usual! (: after one week in Istanbul (its another story, dear readers) came to Antakya! (already know, i need to open another paranthesis for this city here:))
but, wanted to tell that i am here finally! at home!
rainfall & watermelon.. are attending to my happiness!
i am extremelly glad to be with my happiness'mates! :)
May 09, 2010
The US, please let me go back to Turkey!
Hi buddies :) ,
it was planned that i will be in Paris right now instead of being still in Detroit! I stucked here:) I alwalys thought that it will never happen to me:) however experienced one more time, life comes with its unexpected touchings. We dont know what kind of magic & power it has.
The US, please let me go back to Turkey! :) I know, you are still using all your power to have me, but i am sorry, i belong to my country :) One of you should shut up! :)
I remember the day i decided to come to the US. It was not an easy decision for me! because i am the daughter of a man who had made his own war against to capitalizm, exploitation in all of his life, alwalys told&taught me "equality" in the life, shouted slogans against to American's decisions all over the world, lost many of his friends in this aim many many years ago! I still remember the all books that we had when i was a child! All of them were talking about these kind of things! I was too young to grab them! ...My two hands were to grab a candy, i guess!!!
As grow up and mature, tried to understand how the world works with its unfairness! I didnt want to be "something" such as a communist, capitalist, ...'ist... , 'ist !!! didnt want to be part of any ideology with some biases,without observing the others and criticizing them, without having any reason! I didnt want to close both my eyes, my ears to different ideas! Maybe, i will be "something" one day! But i will be sure that what i support, why i support! I am still in my own route to get my own ideology and really happy to meet you in this route! You made me really happy and my life more colorful!
and just realized that this writing is getting too serious :) & you are in my own island now :) Yeah!:) Welcome!
Airports :), they alwalys make me to write something about something:) Of course after shopping :) spending all money! when there is nothing else to do! :)
And, realized that i will miss to be an international student! i guess, it made me more powerful! was thinking that i am able to do everything when i am an international:) because people may think what u doin is about your culture in some case:) thats why i will miss to be crazy as well! :) And i know that you will miss my smile :) Hahahha :) I am a smile'ist ! :) Smilist!?? ( Haha, a new word to English! Dear English language, you sacks sometimes :D)
Dear America, i think we became good friend inspite of having different ideas in many cases!! See you again, of course!
and dear friends, be smilist:) i am lucky to get involved to your own route as well :)
Hope that, i will be able to fly to Turkey finally! :) Hahah! I want to be with my family after 8 months!
p.s:Enjoy being an international students as well!
p.s 2 : To Turkish friends.. Türkiye'de görüşmez üzere:) Saygısızlık ettiysem affola :) Gözlerinizden öpüyorum evlatlar:)
p.s 3:there are many things in my pocket to tell my father now! :)
gokce
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