…
so,
dear“doce de framboesa”,shut your "mouth"!
(actually,the writer is not angry to the doce de framboesa or its mouth, here! the “smart” readers easily understand what the writer's point is! at least, it’s the thing hoped by the writer!)

because;
responsibility..it’s such a hard thing to own!
even at 26 years-old(ed)..
no no..almost 27! (...)
    
la responsabilidad…! hasta la muerte!?

always on my mind,on my mind..&modernity(!!)

"little things i should've said&done, just never took the time: you were always on my mind..,on my mind.." , elvis presley.


the year points 1972; an old song,record,gramafon disc,elvis's glasses& nobleness... how magical everything is..!    how awesome & pure the feelings are.  realized one more time how modernity could take us away from the wholeheartedness!

a smile happens in a flash,but its memory...

•Memphis, Arkansas,Mississippi postcards...
•Arkansas river rail electric streetcar map!
•Christmas cards!
•Amtrak chicago-newyork, newyork-chicago tickets!
•Chicago city map...!
• Newyork official visitor guide, winter 2010, metro cards, movie ticket!
•....
•....
•"Memphis vs Lakers" NBA game ticket!


memories,memories...!

stamp world!

- i'm going to california. do you want anything from there?

       - my girl friend is comin' next week. do you want anything from Japan!?

       - my family is comin' here from Thailand...

(bla bla...)

-of course yes! stamp stamp and stamp!
 it doesnt have to be such an expensive one! the cheapest is enough! thank you, thank you and thank you!:)

that's the usual conversation of me! :)

exactly believe in magic of stamps&post offices! these are the besties to discover a culture,country,what it is about&where you are at..

still remember, at duty-free store, even tough i was broke, bought mixed stamp box used all over the Europe 50, 60 ,70 years ago! they still smell history, happiness, hope,sadness! and what the people wrote inside...
or
tryin' to buy new ones from post offices of the countries i am at! really enjoy with that!

and yesterday, bought new ones used 100 years ago!!!
happiness, happiness! happiness!

searched some information about stamp&its history.
many years ago, shipping cost of sending mail was being paid by receiver instead of sender like cargo is being done now. as you predict,it had some problems. receiver refused to accept the letter to pay the shipping cost by some reasons.( the receiver was not the true one..., the receiver didnt want to read what the sender said.{there might be a "brokenheartedness":)}, or the envelope wasnt loved :} all these are my own scenarios.. bla bla..oohh! almost forgat! there was a different detail: some  people believed not having enouhg money for shipping. thats why they developed a new communication system: sender put a secret messageonto envelope. i'm fine,all goes well - so so) and these signs were enough to understand how the situation goes there. postal company was out of pocket, it  was quickly needed some change.

welcome to a new world: receiver do paying! to prevent all mixups, postal company started to label envelopes:  "it was already paid by sender, even tough you dont wonder or wanna take, it's yours:) " hahahha:) style of label was gradually changed & modernize: ink, signet and then "stamp"! welcome to another world,people!

                                                                            &

  

 then you witness to how the stamps were developed and capitalized.

welcome to the last world,people!
regards...

map of freedom!

map of freedom!

wondering the situation on the moon..
so take me there,please!
That's gonna be one small step for [a] man, one giant leap for mankind!

-madam,you have excess baggage!

for the attention of KLM, Air France,United Airways and "Turkish Airlines"!!

that's the usual sentence what i everytime hear from officer at airport:
-miss ergin, you have excess baggage!

  

Do i always have to take more baggage with me than the standard amount?
Is there any air-way in the world  gonna accept& love me with my extra baggages?

 
i 'm sick of  paying extra fee for each time!

of course, i dont mean what i am doing is right!
but..all my trips are kind of full trips gonna last more than 4,5 or 6 (or 7,8,9..nihahha)months!  and thats the important point!
dear air-lines, what is the supposed thing? having 10, 12 kg per person for whole 8.5 months? ok! i'm just gonna take myself for next time!!! but i am more than 5o kg! do i have to pay more for extra 5 ? !!!

diversity& more rights& being a woman!

i was walking on the street & by chance saw a public meeting organized by political party( identical  with " terrorism" here) supporters which are called as " trouble -makers" by others! they believe in having different identity & prefer speaking another language(Kurdish) instead of Turkish. They always want to have more and more and more rights on government& country! most of them firstly perceive themselves "Kurdish " instead of Turkish! Or only one of them: Kurdish!!!! I know , it is another issue to argue about this social identity problem!  However, diversity is not a good thing at all times!

People say , They secretly have some connection with other countries ( Iraq & America.. What a big surprise! The two enemies have a secret mutual enemy:Turkey) they get psychological & economical power from these countries & create terrorist actions to say "we are here and gonna continue being a problem until get our own rights !!! "

Causation: These are not my own ideas!  These are the general view/situation about the political group! Or these are my own observation of what people observe. Yeah! Love that! observation of observation!;)

Anyway,
Let's turn back to meeting.
At that time, the meeting was kind of only a woman meeting. The women were sitting on ground and saying something in mostly Kurdish , sometimes in Turkish! They had some cards on their hands summarizing their wishes!
" the political group in power can not solve this problem! We are gonna solve the problem! " blah blah...

For first time, it really made me think about their problem and the situation & proud of all women who fight for their rights! No matter what is this is for! Then I asked myself, would I stop,listen them and think about their wishes in same situation where men were taken role instead of women?
Don't know what the answer would be!
Maybe no! So , being a woman sometimes may be a "tool". And  it is kind of sexism!

Maybe , the reality is not exactly what I am writing! Maybe  I lost all my trust to specific things like democracy , the mystery of being a woman due to using these as a tool when it is needed! It is not fair!

Good morning from Istanbul;) !!
came yesterday to vote for referendum & school is starting next 2 weeks!
After my city's hot&dry& "un-rained" ;) (that's my own word!) weather, istanbul says me "hi" with it's almost cold weather;) exactly realized how I missed getting cold & need some more clothes!
Now, there is a French song on media player by chance... reminds me my old  days I had here when this song became famous!
Relationships/loves/ breaking up's... (dear English, it should be "breaking-down", shouldn't it?) ;)
I always wonder how the cities, even songs, maybe streets still keep memories even tough I sometimes forget!  Strange!!
Or there is a pschological explanation ; all our memories complete each other unconsciously! Songs remind streets, streets remind cities.. Cities also do the same! Gestalt Theory!
Anyway....;)



September 11.

“Imitation is the sincerest of flattery*”, Charles Caleb Colton.

 just read ,by chance, a criticism article about how this adage* is adopted by china!  china is criticized changing international brands' names with their chinese pronunciation and making  ideas“copy and paste”for their own domestic markets  !  however, it is added that it wouldn’t be fair to box all the newly industrialized countries as imitators.

maybe, the world exactly goes on like that! you give and take! 

••by the way, what can be nicer than the relationship between milk&chocolate? ;)

do not know actually how names are given to babies in different countries. what is the main point? outmoded grandpa&grandma's names to live the memories forever? or the most popular names to avoid the old-fashioned? some classical names from bible or what the religion's book is. what do parents mainly care?
all of these are applied here. (here? in Turkey:)

just realized, when i need the Turkish Language Association to learn meaning of some Turkish words, also check meaning of mine anytime as if i do not know! but, it works! :) learn a new meaning at every turn! :)


* forgot to say, the new phenomenon here is to give presidents' names!!

'cause it hurts!

when i have my own child/children (: , wont let my honey/honeys to be an exhange student abroad! 'cause saying "goodbye" to people you shared months always hurts!

or

may teach them to behave less emotional!

take care of yourself! and remember me at book&toy store at walmart:)

as the time passes...

as the time passes, you exactly understand & realize how you moved away from people/countries/cities/even streets you were together with!

sorry sir, it is not democracy!

democracy! it's said, the best political form of government!! what the democracy procedure tells us,referendum is a form of direct democracy! the all country is asked to either accept or reject some changes! and that's the point of democracy, isnt it?

however, and unfortunately, what my own observation says is, concept of democracy's changed in Turkey! democracy has used as a main "tool" instead of the main "goal" by the party in power! people do what the part does!
on september 12, there will be a new referendum about some changes on basic law of Turkey. sadly, people have no idea about the content of the changes! 'cause it's higgledy-piggledy* enough not to understand! that's why people say what supported party says! even more, they dont need&wonder to seek the content!!! the changes are becoming for the parties, not for the country! what a huge sadness...

how could it be called "democracy"? how can i believe in democracy where people dont know anything, even more dont wanna know anything when deciding the changes!?

sorry sir, it's not democracy...! it's just sign of power! it's just voice of blind majority!

*In a confused, disordered, or random way!

at Syrian border...

living at near the country borders alwalys excites, doesnt it? :) it gives us chance to explore more and more about differences & similarities existing among countries!

i grew up (or still growing..)and live in Antioch near the Syria... What's more, it is kind of city was involved in Syrian map many year ago! The cultural, historical and commercial interaction between Syria ( especially, its city Aleppo)and Antioch still goes on inspite of mainly language &religion difference ! Above all, first and foremost, i see there is a secret emotional connection among them! it may be called "psychological attachment" !! Thats why, all these connections will exist! It should though!
However, (and especially in summer) you see more Syrian licence plate than Antioch's in Antioch at specific times! which makes me a bit crazy!! Their gasoline is totally different from ours! Theirs pollutes the city MORE and makes harder to breathe!
Dear Syria& Syrian people, i wanna breathe!

ps: arriving to Aleppo from Antioch takes less than 3 hours (includes some obligatory procedure customs house and times at duty free :p ) and it is less than 70$ by bus for 14 hours :) ( 6am- 8pm)

Glückwünsche Deutschland! *

Export datas in last 5 years of Chiha(1,338,612,968 pop.) and Germany(81,757,600 pop.) helped me to understand how planned export is important in comparison to just placing emphasis on countries' population at export.( that is what China does!)
What's more, minimum wages & per capita income in Germany show how they perceive economic growth and the export in a schematic concept!
Different ideologies countries adopt may have an importance at this point. We may not wait to see same minimum wages & per capita income in China that Germany has; however Congratulations Germany!(*)